Karleen Pendleton Jiménez has known that she was gay since she was three years old, and has wanted to have a baby for almost as long. But one crucial element was missing in the life of the butch Chicana lesbian—the sperm. This candid and humorous memoir follows Karleen’s challenges, adventures, successes, failures, humiliations, and triumphs while attempting to fulfill her dream of becoming a mother. Though at times lighthearted, such as when Karleen considers all of the potential options for ferilization—some anonymous, some not—it is a weighty topic, and one that will change her life forever. The book is her confession of desire, humility, and a search for perfection.